Being a fan.

I think I'm getting the hang of this now. In that case I'm going to talk about me being a Lordi fan, BFMV fan and BVB fan and how it all started...

Basically, it was 2006 and I was a cute, sweet little girl who didn't know what the words "hate" and "sadness" meant. I was sitting around, watching the Eurovision and all of a sudden five monsters came onstage. Little did I know what these monsters would mean to me. I began listening to them and my six year old brain went "I like them". When I discovered YouTube, I listened to Lordi non-stop and I was constantly waiting for new updates. When I was eight, I got my first Lordi t-shirt...the Chess shirt (still fits me, just a tiny bit small). Also when I was eight I found out about the official Lordi forum - the Monsterboard (a.k.a, the MB). I didn't make an account but I was on there for ages, reading fanfictions and...well, reading fanfictions really. I wasn't the brightest kid, because I thought all of the stories were real....

When I was nine I, finally, began getting all the Lordi albums and when I was ten (I may have been eleven, actually) I got a second Lordi t-shirt: The Lordi's Bitch t-shirt.

Then in 2012, things began to change for Lordi. When Kita left, Otus came and Otus died. I felt exeedingly guilty when Otus died because I hated him as a drummer and I wanted Kita back. Then they got 'The Drummer' who turned out to be Mana. Here's a creepy coindience (did I spell that right?) : I play The Sims 2 a lot and one of my Sims is called Mana! I gave him that name BEFORE Lordi's new costumes came out as well...

Then Awa left Lordi. Awa had meant so much to me through my childhood and whenever I was going to do something I would always think 'what would Awa do?'. True Story. I was crying for three days straight and I, eventually, got over it. I still miss her, btw.

I, finally, created my Monsterboard account and an account on the Lordi Army (we're still in 2012) and I began writing a fanfiction called Teenage Monsters. It recieved positive comments and quite a few views (not as many as some, though).

In early-ish 2013, my Lordi life began running downhill. All because of one person...her name is Lily Johnson. She started of as a troll, just saying my fanfiction was rubbish. Then my two-year-old cousin died of meningitis and Lily wrote these exact words:
'Boohoo, get over it. Life goes on. And stop trying to get attention.'.
I know, just a stupid troll but it did hurt. Then she 'trolled' two of my friend's fanfic's (one has an account here [I think. could be Blogspot she's on though {is this website blogspot or blogger??}]).

Then Lily faded away. OR SO WE THOUGHT.
She came on Facebook and posted something on my wall, and to this day it still makes me tear up. Then she vanished for a while. But, she came back. This time on Twitter. Will not go into details.

During this Lily business, one of my friend's was diagnosed with cancer. She committed suicide.

Then I began to cut myself, everything in my life was horrible and miserable and this was just my way of coping.

I'm, slowly, stopping the self-harm and I'm working on a new Lordi fanfic.

And that is my life in the Lordi fandom (along the way I picked up several pieces of merchandise, will list them later).