Don't worry, this'll be my last post today.
I'm not going to write out my entire fanfiction, just give a basic summary/overview of what it's about.
The Lordi monsters are teens in my story and it's basically one drama after another. Bowls of pasta getting slammed into faces, performances, kidnaps, etc, etc. The main character is Awa and it mainly revolves around her crush on Lordi's ex-drummer, Kita. Her ex-best friend, Enary, is Kita's girlfriend and Awa's not too thrilled about it. Along with Kita, Enary and Awa there's also Amen, Hella, Mr. Lordi, OX, Kalma and Awa's best friend, Charlene (there's a Lordi song called Missing Miss Charlene). There are a few other characters (someone called Ruiz - he's a very popular villain amongst a few stories) including Mana, G-Stealer, Otus and Magnum but they don't do very much. Magnum occaisonally has a pov (Point Of View) in the story, and he's probably the only one that can see the bleeding obvious while the others can't. Trust me, the story's better than it sounds in this little review (I hope).
Sunday 28 April 2013
Being cyber-bullied. I know what it's like.
As I said in the title, I know what it's like to be cyber bullied. It is not nice.
If you've read my post on Being A Fan (or whatever it's called), you'll know I had some abuse from someone called Lily.
I don't want to make any fuss about it, so respect my desicion (yes, I'm kind of making a fuss by blogging about it but it helps to type out my feelings [and I keep things inside of me, btw]).
You haven't heard the full story about Lily. She (somehow) knows my e-mail adress, my iMessage adress and a whole lot of other stuff (in fact, I think she's going to somehow find out about me having an account here and she'll be blogging about her hate for me :/) and she's been bullying me that way. She's been calling me horrible stuff and she's been threatening to tell people about one of my 'big, dark secrets'. And that's what freaks me out: I don't have any secrets for her to tell, so she's likely to make up a (convincing) one.
Just so you know, this isn't the full story. I'm just picking out the happier bits of my time being cyber-bullied. And I don't want to talk about my less-happier time going through this.
If you've read my post on Being A Fan (or whatever it's called), you'll know I had some abuse from someone called Lily.
I don't want to make any fuss about it, so respect my desicion (yes, I'm kind of making a fuss by blogging about it but it helps to type out my feelings [and I keep things inside of me, btw]).
You haven't heard the full story about Lily. She (somehow) knows my e-mail adress, my iMessage adress and a whole lot of other stuff (in fact, I think she's going to somehow find out about me having an account here and she'll be blogging about her hate for me :/) and she's been bullying me that way. She's been calling me horrible stuff and she's been threatening to tell people about one of my 'big, dark secrets'. And that's what freaks me out: I don't have any secrets for her to tell, so she's likely to make up a (convincing) one.
Just so you know, this isn't the full story. I'm just picking out the happier bits of my time being cyber-bullied. And I don't want to talk about my less-happier time going through this.
Being a fan.
I think I'm getting the hang of this now. In that case I'm going to talk about me being a Lordi fan, BFMV fan and BVB fan and how it all started...
Basically, it was 2006 and I was a cute, sweet little girl who didn't know what the words "hate" and "sadness" meant. I was sitting around, watching the Eurovision and all of a sudden five monsters came onstage. Little did I know what these monsters would mean to me. I began listening to them and my six year old brain went "I like them". When I discovered YouTube, I listened to Lordi non-stop and I was constantly waiting for new updates. When I was eight, I got my first Lordi t-shirt...the Chess shirt (still fits me, just a tiny bit small). Also when I was eight I found out about the official Lordi forum - the Monsterboard (a.k.a, the MB). I didn't make an account but I was on there for ages, reading fanfictions and...well, reading fanfictions really. I wasn't the brightest kid, because I thought all of the stories were real....
When I was nine I, finally, began getting all the Lordi albums and when I was ten (I may have been eleven, actually) I got a second Lordi t-shirt: The Lordi's Bitch t-shirt.
Then in 2012, things began to change for Lordi. When Kita left, Otus came and Otus died. I felt exeedingly guilty when Otus died because I hated him as a drummer and I wanted Kita back. Then they got 'The Drummer' who turned out to be Mana. Here's a creepy coindience (did I spell that right?) : I play The Sims 2 a lot and one of my Sims is called Mana! I gave him that name BEFORE Lordi's new costumes came out as well...
Then Awa left Lordi. Awa had meant so much to me through my childhood and whenever I was going to do something I would always think 'what would Awa do?'. True Story. I was crying for three days straight and I, eventually, got over it. I still miss her, btw.
I, finally, created my Monsterboard account and an account on the Lordi Army (we're still in 2012) and I began writing a fanfiction called Teenage Monsters. It recieved positive comments and quite a few views (not as many as some, though).
In early-ish 2013, my Lordi life began running downhill. All because of one person...her name is Lily Johnson. She started of as a troll, just saying my fanfiction was rubbish. Then my two-year-old cousin died of meningitis and Lily wrote these exact words:
'Boohoo, get over it. Life goes on. And stop trying to get attention.'.
I know, just a stupid troll but it did hurt. Then she 'trolled' two of my friend's fanfic's (one has an account here [I think. could be Blogspot she's on though {is this website blogspot or blogger??}]).
Then Lily faded away. OR SO WE THOUGHT.
She came on Facebook and posted something on my wall, and to this day it still makes me tear up. Then she vanished for a while. But, she came back. This time on Twitter. Will not go into details.
During this Lily business, one of my friend's was diagnosed with cancer. She committed suicide.
Then I began to cut myself, everything in my life was horrible and miserable and this was just my way of coping.
I'm, slowly, stopping the self-harm and I'm working on a new Lordi fanfic.
And that is my life in the Lordi fandom (along the way I picked up several pieces of merchandise, will list them later).
Basically, it was 2006 and I was a cute, sweet little girl who didn't know what the words "hate" and "sadness" meant. I was sitting around, watching the Eurovision and all of a sudden five monsters came onstage. Little did I know what these monsters would mean to me. I began listening to them and my six year old brain went "I like them". When I discovered YouTube, I listened to Lordi non-stop and I was constantly waiting for new updates. When I was eight, I got my first Lordi t-shirt...the Chess shirt (still fits me, just a tiny bit small). Also when I was eight I found out about the official Lordi forum - the Monsterboard (a.k.a, the MB). I didn't make an account but I was on there for ages, reading fanfictions and...well, reading fanfictions really. I wasn't the brightest kid, because I thought all of the stories were real....
When I was nine I, finally, began getting all the Lordi albums and when I was ten (I may have been eleven, actually) I got a second Lordi t-shirt: The Lordi's Bitch t-shirt.
Then in 2012, things began to change for Lordi. When Kita left, Otus came and Otus died. I felt exeedingly guilty when Otus died because I hated him as a drummer and I wanted Kita back. Then they got 'The Drummer' who turned out to be Mana. Here's a creepy coindience (did I spell that right?) : I play The Sims 2 a lot and one of my Sims is called Mana! I gave him that name BEFORE Lordi's new costumes came out as well...
Then Awa left Lordi. Awa had meant so much to me through my childhood and whenever I was going to do something I would always think 'what would Awa do?'. True Story. I was crying for three days straight and I, eventually, got over it. I still miss her, btw.
I, finally, created my Monsterboard account and an account on the Lordi Army (we're still in 2012) and I began writing a fanfiction called Teenage Monsters. It recieved positive comments and quite a few views (not as many as some, though).
In early-ish 2013, my Lordi life began running downhill. All because of one person...her name is Lily Johnson. She started of as a troll, just saying my fanfiction was rubbish. Then my two-year-old cousin died of meningitis and Lily wrote these exact words:
'Boohoo, get over it. Life goes on. And stop trying to get attention.'.
I know, just a stupid troll but it did hurt. Then she 'trolled' two of my friend's fanfic's (one has an account here [I think. could be Blogspot she's on though {is this website blogspot or blogger??}]).
Then Lily faded away. OR SO WE THOUGHT.
She came on Facebook and posted something on my wall, and to this day it still makes me tear up. Then she vanished for a while. But, she came back. This time on Twitter. Will not go into details.
During this Lily business, one of my friend's was diagnosed with cancer. She committed suicide.
Then I began to cut myself, everything in my life was horrible and miserable and this was just my way of coping.
I'm, slowly, stopping the self-harm and I'm working on a new Lordi fanfic.
And that is my life in the Lordi fandom (along the way I picked up several pieces of merchandise, will list them later).
First Post
this is my first blog post, chances are I've done everything wrong. The title (I think) is called Never Give In. The reason for that is
a) that's my favourite Black Veil Brides song
b) I can relate to the lyrics a lot
c) I still have no idea what the hell I'm doing and when I clicked 'create a blog' it said something about a blog title and that was the first thing that came into my mind.
So, I guess I should give a little introduction about myself. All I can say is to go on a website and find my profile (same picture as my profile picture here [I think, I still don't know what the hell is going on here]) and read it ^_^
a) that's my favourite Black Veil Brides song
b) I can relate to the lyrics a lot
c) I still have no idea what the hell I'm doing and when I clicked 'create a blog' it said something about a blog title and that was the first thing that came into my mind.
So, I guess I should give a little introduction about myself. All I can say is to go on a website and find my profile (same picture as my profile picture here [I think, I still don't know what the hell is going on here]) and read it ^_^
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